Personal Rant

Its really hard to keep up the “I’ve got my shit together” act sometimes.

Throughout grad school I was an anxious mess.   I feel like I was always stressed and talking about how stressed I was over everything: not scoring the best on an exam, not exercising enough, not being the best girl friend, not being able to find a job.  I worried about everything.  Surely my friends were annoyed.

Once I graduated and landed a great job in California, I thought “great, this is my time to get my life together.”  And I’ve been able to maintain that.  I moved to a small apartment in Cali, started my job, got engaged, moved to a bigger apartment, got a raise, joined a triathlon club etc.  When things are going well, its pretty easy to appear like a well adjusted adult.

Underneath, friends and family don’t see that you come home sometimes in tears because some people you work with can be unbearable.   Or you are just in tears because you are so freaking tired after a 12 hour day.  You face mansplaining every day at work.  You are having trouble eating at normal times because you are working weird hours, so you work out over your lunch hour, and squeeze food in when you can.  Someone you love died.  Your credit card is wracking up the wedding costs.  Every time you think about your wedding, which you are looking forward to, you also have this nagging feeling that your bridesmaids would much rather not go because you have asked them to do something insanely expensive.  You feel that you are constantly letting them down, even. Your beautiful apartment is a wreck most of the time.  Friends who don’t live in California and aren’t paying $2550 a month plus utilities for a one bedroom apartment think you are making bank, and you fear they are surely judging you for your expensive resort wedding.  Your student loans also think you are making bank because they don’t consider cost of living when they see your income and decide you can in fact pay the maximum monthly back.  Your eyes hurt and you are due for an eye appointment but your not covered for another month.  You have lower back pain.   And bad posture.  And your significant other is just as stressed about different things, so you tend to put your issues on the back burner because honestly your problems are smaller problems.

Sometimes a bunch of insignificant problems turns into the weight of the world.  A ton of feathers still weighs a ton.

Heres to everyone keeping their shit together, and hoping for the sun to come out.  Because I can’t get any more of this rain in California, I already had to shell out 500 bucks for a new wheel after my Passat hit a pothole.  Until then, in the words of many psychologists before me, fake it til you make it.

happy faking it!


8 Uses for Apple Watch series 2

Hi!  So I am the proud owner of an Apple Watch series 2!  This post is not a review, nor is it to promote or try to convince you to also buy an Apple watch.  I just often get a lot of people asking me “what do you do with it?” or “what can it do?”

SO here are the 8 main things I personally use my Apple Watch Series 2 for:

  1. Working out.  Not just working out.  I use my watch for legit training.  I am training for a triathlon this year, and with the water-proof, GPS-enabled Apple Watch series 2, I can run, bike, AND swim with it.  It has been the easiest transition from my trusty Garmin.  HOWEVER if you are a stats and numbers person, this may not be the watch for you.  I rely purely on distance and HR training, and I find it is just what I
  2. Travel.  Apple watch is super handy if you are a frequent flier, because you can access your wallet from it. This doesn’t seem like a big deal.  But imagine that you are rushing to your gate, hands full of all of your luggage, and instead of having you free up a hand and pull out your ticket or your phone, you just scan your watch, right on your wrist, and you are on the plane.  See?  Game changer.
  3. #Fashun.  The faces AND bands of the Apple Watch are interchangeable.  You can set a picture as your background, and there are hundreds of different bands you can find on the internets.  The possibilities are endless!  Going back to my working out point, its nice to have a watch that can be both classy and elegant, and also a bad-ass workout device.applewatch
  4. Directions.  More specifically: on wrist directions.  One time while riding my bike, I got lost and couldn’t find my way around.  I was able to pull up Maps on my phone, find directions home, put my phone back in my pocket, and then be able to see where I was going right on my wrist.  Clutch for when you are on a bike.
  5. Daily events.  At work, I often have projects and meetings happening throughout the day.  Instead of having to pull up a phone or a day planner, I can just glance at my watch and see whats next and what time it is.  When you are on the go and trying to squeeze in workouts, this is an amazing thing.
  6. Apple pay.  Oh my god the most convenient thing on the face of the planet.  Also secure because the device is ON YOUR WRIST.  Many if not most places accept Apple pay here in the Bay Area.  Can’t wait for more companies to accept it!apple_pay_watch1
  7. Bells and whistles.  I use my watch for so many other little things.  I check the weather, I use it as a stop watch, I count my steps, I can voice-to-text on it, I can check instagram, answer a call on it.  There are so many little things that I use it for day to day.
  8. Minimizing screen time.  This sounds counterintuitive.  I have become less dependent on my phone with this device.  Knowing that notifications are going to come straight to my wrist means I check my phone less.  This is impactful just throughout the day, but also while in meetings, or doing things like driving.  If I get a text, I can quickly glance at my wrist and then either go back to what I was doing, or decide to pull over to address.  This has been the most profound thing I have learned having the Apple Watch.

Got an Apple Watch?  Got something else?  Tell me about it!  Post below 🙂

happy ‘watch’ing